Promises
Today has far been one of the best and one of the worst days. Accenture has been beyond supportive, they have gone above and beyond anything John and I could have ever imagined and feel so incredibly blessed. The other great news is it looks like they may have found a back up bone marrow donor, we are waiting on one more test to come back. At school they said a special prayer for Kimbell at chapel and in class. Nothing is more powerful than prayers.
Meanwhile I was packing for MN and the wish trip. It is rather unnerving to be packing all of your child’s clothes and her prized possessions wondering if the drawers will ever be filled again. Kimbell has been keeping extremely busy and it seemed like she was avoiding me, I think she was. Tonight she wanted to talk to me and just me… There are just some conversations that no parent should ever have with their child and some promises that you want to make more than anything in the world but you can’t. We have always been honest with Kimbell and have always talked about heaven. She knows that this is going to be a rough road and there is a good chance she won’t be coming home. Tonight she told me she was scared but excited. Did she make the right decision. I told her that BMT had been in the cards for a long time and it wasn’t her decision it was God’s. Her response, so I finally ran out of cards huh? So on transplant day she is going to say I’m out of cards now. Then she begged me to promise her that she will make it, that she will come home because she doesn’t want to leave us. I told her I can’t promise her that but I can promise her that she will finally be healthy either way. That no matter what she will be better. That isn’t what she wanted to hear, as she was well aware of that 🙁 So she asked me to promise again that she wasn’t going to die and that it wouldn’t be the last night in her home. And once again I couldn’t.
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That just breaks my heart. I have been so scared lately with my cancer but it is so much easier being the sick one than being the helpless one standing by watching them go through it. Of course another big difference is I’m an adult. I’ve had my chance to live although I would love to stay and be with my husband and daughter. Kimball hasn’t even got started yet. What a brave young lady (I won’t call her a little girl, she has been through too much in her life). I pray Kimball will have a wonderdul wish trip, then a successful treatment. As the parents of such a brave young lady, I pray God will give you strength and peace. I miss my SCS famy everyday. You will never find a better group of people and support. Love and miss you, Lisa McDaniel
This made me cry. Please stay positive I think that and prayers of course are the best medicine! I decided there was going to be no if’s or but’s going into Josh’s transplant! I just printed out your header picture to put up in our Sunday School class they have been asking for updates every week and we all will be praying!! Looking forward to seeing you all when we are there in August!!
Sweet friends!!!
Have fun on your make a wish – savor the moments!! Be at peace as God watches over you.
We cover your family in prayers daily!!!
Let Him have all your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.
John 14:27
I am leaving you with a gift – peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn’t fragile like the peace the world gives. So don’t be troubled or afraid.
Philippians 4:6-7
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don’t forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ.
Psalms 40:1-3
I waited patiently for God to help me; then He listened and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out from the bog and the mire, and set my feet on a hard, firm path and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, of praises to our God. Now many will hear of the glorious things He did for me, and stand in awe before the Lord, and put their trust in Him.
Isaiah 40:31
Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong! Be courageous! Do not be afraid of them! For the Lord your God will be with you. He will neither fail you nor forsake you.
Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed. I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will uphold you with My victorious right hand.
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I will light a candle at mass, just as I did for Sadie, for Kimbell. I believe in faith, and prayer, and miracles, and the power of a parents love, and the will of a stubborn child to fight, and strength in numbers, and God’s work! I believe that Kimbell is here for a reason and all her/your friendships are for a reason. I believe that she will persevere. I believe she WILL come home, because, she just WILL! I believe in being positive and thinking good thoughts and remaining optimistic in all circumstances. You keep your chin up and your faith strong and we will keep the prayers coming. WE LOVE YOU and that means a lot!! K is coming home!
Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Kimbell is strong at heart and has so much tenacity. She will stand strong and healthy when this is over. I love her spunky personality and sense of humor so much. Piper and I will continue to pray for strength and healing.
Enjoy her Make a Wish trip and take lots of pictures!!! I can’t wait to see her pink costume. 🙂
Love you all!!!
We will pray lots of prayers for Kimbell. It is hard not to be able to promise your child everything will be ok. I remember the first time Ryan told me he didn’t want to died. Broke my heart! Praying for a successful bone marrow transplant!
Kimbell is being remembered in prayer at our small, but devoted Poolville United Methodist Church on a regular basis. There are people praying for her that you will never know. It is all in God’s hands now… Sending all our love, prayers, and best wishes… Howard and Brenda
Paul wrote to those in Corinth… And he said unto me, my grace is sufficient for the: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.
And to the Phillipians… I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.
The strength given to us is the same PERFECT strength that was first made PERFECT by our weakness.
Many times I have been humbled, left in awe and even shamed by those who are much younger, smaller and allegedly more frail than myself. Had I the resilience and tenacity of a child with the faith of a mustard I could move more than a mere mountain. Just imagine what a child could with a mother that knows nothing is more powerful than prayers and a father who is willing to accept prayers from a complete stranger.
God bless Kimbell. Me and mine are praying also.